Tuesday, July 30, 2013

My thoughts.

I've always been one who was a leader type.

Not in an immodest way, it's just when presented with a social group I tend to be a decision maker. And catalyst. I've had many moments I'm not proud of while being a small social leader, but we make mistakes just to learn from them.

Sure, I may have made an impact on some.

Maybe I've even impacted you in a way.

But I have a bigger goal. And it is somewhat imaginary for me.

Ever since I have grown up, I've began to despise many things about this world. It's why I don't keep an ear on politics and the news. But still, that hasn't helped at all. I'm still tainted by opinions that were preached onto me; even if I try to look at a different perspective, a little voice pecks at me. "No! That isn't right! It is against your beliefs!"

I'm trying to push that away.

At the same time, I try not to focus on things that makes this voice come to mind.

Another thing that is difficult is that I try to discuss these new opinions with family. Now, my family. I love them to bits. But, damn! They are very judgmental on certain aspects of life.

I tell them that I don't want to practice religion anymore. They got very steamed, but it's come to the point where I don't care what they want me to think. I respect their wishes, and they should at least put some effort on their part, even pretend!

Anyways, I don't want to get too personal here.

In this day and age, their isn't much optimism going on. Everyone wants change, and they want a more positive time and age. But they aren't doing much to change it. I'm a hypocrite. It takes one to know one.

All they care about is celebrities who have serious issues and spending money on useless projects.

At least I care about something that could, one day, be extremely important. Might even exist.

Space. Time travel. Multiverses. Other living creatures.

I'm not pining over some celebrity who is tunneling into an early death. I'd rather focus on something much more interesting and monumental.

Something that could change everything. How we live. How we see life.

Going back to the change thing.

I was affecting my social groups, which doesn't happen too often because I'm very quiet and kept to myself. Introverted, if you will.

Even though you might not make a change outside, with actual people and an actual place, you can change it here.

The internet.

It's brilliant, absolutely brilliant! People complain that there isn't much going on, but the internet has changed many. It's a place for change.

I would say it is a whole Enlightment. A cyber- Enlightment.

And I want to take part of it.

I could change little outside in real time. But here, you can reach millions.

It's brilliant.



  1. I'm optimistic – most of the time.


  2. I decided that I didn't want to practice my parent's religion in eighth grade. They were cool with it. Now it's not their religion either.